That Might Be Depression. . .

Call it whatever you want, but if you have the symptoms, please get help. Things can get better.
Life does not have to feel like a painful struggle everyday.  We are meant to experience a range of emotions in life, including sadness, anger, fear, joy, and so much more. 
Do you ever look around and say "wow my life is pretty good" "why don't I act like it" or  "I should be happy"?  In other words, does it seem like your emotions or mood don't match with your environment or situation in life?   That might be depression.

Do you ever find yourself crying and realize you are not exactly sure why it is that you are so sad?
Do you have a list of things to do, but cant seem to get motivated to do any of it?
Or, does anything extra feel like just too much to handle?
That might be depression.

Are you easily frustrated by things that wouldn't usually bother you?  Do social activities sound more like work than fun? Have you ever felt like  self care activities are sort of pointless? 
That might be depression.

Depression and too much stress can often look alot alike in terms of how they affect a person. They often also happen together.  
Do you feel hopeless that things can get better? Do you feel like no one would care if you were gone? Do you use drugs or alcohol to feel better or feel numb?

If you answered yes to these questions, stop what you are doing and get yourself some help. Suffering alone has not worked for you and its time to try something new.  See a therapist, talk to your doctor, call a help line, talk to a friend or family member. Do something though. Don't do what you have been doing because doing nothing will not change things for the better.
A 7 days a week 24 hour a day, support line is theSan Diego Access and Crisis Line. It is staffed by therapists and interns who are trained to help. They can talk with you, listen and also help to find resources you may need. The number is  (888) 724-7240.